I have to say, I feel utterly spectacular about my future today. Last night, October 30 I had my very last drink and I'm fully prepared to be committed to getting myself back on track.
Last night could not have gone better, we shot some pool, laughed, joked and had a great run of it, but like I said before, the bitter taste is just getting too strong. I'm ready to be done drinking for good :) And I'm happy.
I have been pulling it together lately and even losing some weight, I think going for walks during the day is really helping me with the anxiety and depression.
Today is my little brothers birthday so I'm going to take him a cake or something, and maybe take him out for coffee, he is 16! We had a party for him already that went well, he seems to be happy with his new girlfriend and I'm very happy for him.
Point being, that I'm ready and I know its going to be hard and in a respect I did hit another bottom with loss of self respect and shame and guilt.
"Its hard to fail, but it is worse to have never tried to succeed"
-Theo Roosavelt
I chose that quote because I feel that I have failed myself and my family in some respects and I have jumped on and off too many times, but now I'm attempting to put this all behind me and try again to succeed. Please wish me luck :)
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